I recently picked up the book "Crazy Love - Overwhelmed by a relentless God" written by Francis Chan. There is one chapter that is entitled "profile of the obsessed".
Obsessed: To have the mind excessively preoccupied with a single emotion or topic.
This is how I would describe the relationship I had with my blog. There was the ever present preoccupation of what I would be posting next. The thinking and rehearsing the words, pictures, and stories in my head of what I wanted to share. Reviewing the best way to phrase a sentence or how the posting would look.
I had been feeling God asking me to consider what it would be like to be away from this blog. But I did not relent. I liked this idol, and what it did for me.
I finally bent my will towards Him.
He was calling me back away from my own consuming thoughts, and asking me to fill the space with His thoughts. And so I have been steadily turning my heart back to my home, family, studying Bible. Allowing my thoughts to wonder about what He wants. Doing this has allowed His burning Spirit in me to be heard more often.
The goal now for this blog is to journal of the Lord's faithfulness; and to share with family and friends the updates of our family.
"The Bible teaches us to be consumed with Christ and to faithfully live out His words. The Holy Spirit stirs in us a joy and peace when we are fixated on Jesus, living by faith, and focussed on the life to come."
~Crazy Love, by Francis Chan